I miss you...it kills me to not be able to call you.

I miss you. As your bestest friend in the whole wide world it kills me to not be able to call you and tell you what’s on my mind.

Every Chevy truck still makes me smile. It’s that bittersweet feeling.

I know why. So much has been clear to me since we met. I needed you to help me through my transition. You pulled me past the hardest part. I want to do the same for you.

But I know I can’t.

I’m angry. I’m not mad that you made the choices you did. I’m mad you had someone else tell me. I can’t call you anymore until things blow over? FINE You aren’t man enough to deserve me anyway. I won’t be calling. And when you get around to calling me, I may not answer.

So much has changed in my life that I want you to know but I can’t tell you. I need your advice…you always know the words to move me to action.

Guess I’ll have to use your memory.

Confidence, confidence, confidence.

I met someone. And he’s amazing. That’s my word & I don’t use it much anymore because it’s special. Only someone as special as me deserves it. But he is AMAZING.

You taught me what that word really means. Because I am amazing, that’s what you taught me.

Thank you. I miss you every day. I do love you. You’re my bestest friend in the whole wide world. You know how much you mean to me.

I only wish you could be here to watch me live the life you helped me belief in. Because it is great.

In fact, it’s amazing.

All my love,

Your BFINTWWW,

Smalls